So long

It's been so long since I've last written something, that I'm reluctant to try to now. It's silly, but I'm afraid I have lost the possible style I had, if I had any. Besides, I'm at lost at what to write about.

Well, poetry is off limits at the moment. It's what scares me the most to write. OK, "scares" is a strong word, but I'm the most reluctant to write poetry, because I don't feel the natural flow to do so anymore.

I've had two characters in my mind for years, which started out as fantasy-like mascots and then evolved into a modern, more mature version, non-fantasy-like. I'd like to write about them someday, but I feel the story has become very sad and I almost don't want a happy ending. Isn't that strange. Me, the romantic, doesn't want a happy ending? I mean, yes I like bittersweet, but I hate those stories where you go through an emotional roller-coaster, only to find yourself finishing it with a bad taste in your mouth, thinking "why did I go over the trouble of even reading all of it?".

Besides that, I need to create a good backstory, which I haven't stopped to do at all. And overall I need to create a decent story to back up the characters, other than the already existent fleeting & angst-y emotions.

Basically I haven't made an effort to flesh out a real story. And it's pitiful. v-v

Eventually I want to get back to writing. It was very satisfying to post and see it here. Sadly I have no other record of the older drafts which I never posted on this blog, because I lost them with the last computer I had that died on me. Next time I'm going to either post it all or keep it in a CD. It was fun to look back on the little bits I had written.